Monday, November 30, 2009

Life happens!

I have always thought that blog posts were supposed to be informative, but fun to read. I love hearing about other people's experiences and ideas and daily lives. I like happy thoughts and happy blogs. This time I am going to tell about something that is not so happy. Something that is happening in my life that has made a huge effect on everything that I do.
As most of you know in Sept 2005 I was told that I have a tumor in my left sinus area in the brain. It is benign and inoperable. I was told it is the best kind of tumor but in the worst place possible. Any surgery could be fatal, or cause horrible side effects such as damage to all facial nerves and stroke. I have been doing fine except for a few horrible headaches here and there and some other treatments to my face that are symptoms of the tumor.
Earlier this month (Nov 5) I woke up feeling pretty dizzy and off balance. I got ready for work and went to do my job. As I was sitting in the office at work I had a seizure. Of course everyone was alarmed and an ambulance was called and I was taken to the local Hospital and then transported to St. Vincent Hospital and was there for about 3 days. They did many tests and told me to contact several kinds of doctors to . I have the best Neurosurgeon in the world but now I have to add more doctors to help with the symptoms. I called the doctors they suggested and couldn't get in until Dec 21 2009. Good thing it wasn't an emergency huh? I had about 11 episodes in the hospital in St. Vincent but nothing was really done to help me out. I was exhausted from the seizures and it took me a good 2 weeks to get my energy back. I went about 2 weeks without any problems, a slight dizzy spell here or there but I had started working a few hours a day and started driving again. Then Tues the week of Thanksgiving when all my family was here, we were all having fun together and I had another seizure. This time they were more frequent and lasted longer than before. So after having a great Thanksgiving dinner sitting around with neighbors, I had another one, and then another one. It was decided to take me to the Conway Regional Hospital that night. They started me on a seizure medication that very night and they clocked the frequency and time of each one, I had 24 in 4 days but 18 of those 24 were in 20 hours. So they were getting worse and more frequent. Thankfully a Neursurgeon came in and was there when I had a seizure. They have upped my meds 3 x the normal amount now. Now I need to go to be monitored at a hospital soon to find out if there is any damage and what they can do to help me.
This is a life changing situation for us. I should have someone with me at all times and I can't drive. I am probably not going to be able to work at this point. Last night we sat as a family and had to make some hard decisions of what changes have to take place in our lives.
I have hope that things will go well but I also have to accept reality too. At this point prayers are what I need. My sweet family had a special fast and prayer for me yesterday, it was much appreciated.
I know who the Master healer is and have faith that he will heal. Even if that means that things will be different than what I had planned. He is in charge.
I will say that it was wonderful having family here for Thanksgiving! They are awesome. They helped me SO much. I was sitting in my hospital bed not happy that I couldn't be with them and my cell phone went off about 6 times in a row. They all texted me telling me that they loved me. It was awesome. I got visits from them often and the Doctors were willing to release me so that I could watch our little Liz get blessed on Sunday. That was a blessing! I realized even more now that family and friends are the most important thing we can have. Nothing else really matters! I missed Black Friday and all the deals and it doesn't even matter cause all of that is just stuff I don't have to have. This Christmas will be quite with a small group of family gathered around and that is just what I want.
Love ya'll

Sunday, November 8, 2009

I am thankful for...

November is that special time of the year when thoughts are turned to being thankful for our blessings. This past week has been tough and I have had time to reflect on those things are are most important to me.
First of all... my Heavenly Father and His Son who created all. The knowledge of the Gospel of Jesus Christ, to know who I am, why I am here and what happens after I leave this life is so comforting.
Next... my family. I was blessed to be born in a home with good parents and siblings and to have an awesome husband and wonderful children and adorable grandchildren. My family is my whole life they are my greatest joy!
Next are my good friends, I have really been blessed with many loving, supporting friends of all ages, and backgrounds.
I have been blessed with a good job and employer, and good co-workers.
And then all the comforts of life... home, food, clothes etc.
I have been blessed with good health. When you lose this one you realize just how much you have taken it for granted. I guess that goes for all our blessings though.

I thank God for my blessings and maybe I won't ask for as much as I usually do but just thank Him and truly appreciate the goodness of life that He has given me!

So what are you thankful for?
Love ya'll!